cookie dough toes

this is zoey =] my little sister always calls her "puppy toes" because zoey is too hard for her to say. i thought her paws looked like chocolate chip cookies though, so i started calling her cookie dough toes. she's a pain sometimes (like right now) when she's barking because we won't let her out of the bathroom. but other times she's soo cute, like when she's asleep, or chasing you. but for the most part she's a pretty well behaved dog.

i always wondered as a child why we never really had that many pets. the whole time up until i was twelve we only had two different cats. we kept each of them for about... two years altogether, then my mom decided she didn't want them, so she gave them to my grandpa. i was upset about it for the longest time. i never really understood how much responsibility a dog was untiil we got one, and i had to help a lot more.

there are stars enough to make every wish come true

last week, as you know, was the one week during the whole entire year that there are meteor showers every night. i watched two of them. the first on wednesday night with my mommy, the next on thursday night with cosette. the stars are so amazing. how there's so many of them, and the more you look, the more you see. as alyse said, it really makes you feel small. to know that there's so much more out there, and we don't even know everything about the two planets closest to us. let alone the our whole galaxy, then the who knows how many other ones out there. anyways, the "fire in the sky" last week was pretty amazing. when i watched them thursday night with cosey, we kept making wishes on them as we saw them falling...

on a different note, school starts tomorrow. woot? i think i might be kind of sort of slightly excited. i only have one class with cosette. and alyse, and grant, as well as all of my other ninth grade friends left. meh. but i suppose meeting new people can be fun. there might be people i already know in some of the classes too. is it ridiculous for me to be nervous about starting school tomorrow? the same school i've been to for the last two(ish) years? i thinks so...

this summer went by way too fast. it was here, and then... it just wasn't. my last day of summer vacation was pretty fun, though. i walked to legacy park to meet cosette, alyse, kevin, and cole. then we got snow cones at snoasis, and sat around in the deeer park =p at some point in the day we met up with hayleigh, while cosette went to practice for volley ball in burgess park. we walked over there and watched her for a little while, then decided we were hungry. so we got alfredo pizza at dimitri's. then alyse left with her dad on some sort of motorcycle type vehicle that i wouldn't know the name of, and, shortly after i had to leave too to go to mutual.

was this summer amazing? slightly so, i'd say. if moving hadn't taken one whole freaking month it probably would have been better. but there's no going back now. the past is the past. i think the moments that were the very best, are these:

• sitting under the stars during the lehi stake dance on the last day of school, with carlos, cosette, alyse, grant, and aubrey.
• grants birthday... that whole day was pretty rad.
• playing guitar under the stars and the streetlamp with hayleigh and cosette. (and alyse on the phone)
• having a sleepover in the tent in my backyard with alyse and cosette, and getting attacked by the hugenormous spider that tried to eat me. lol.
  
• going swiming with alyse and cosette, then later sitting on alyse's deck at three in the morning watching the stars and babbling to eachother about rain cloudy thoughts.
• the alpine dance on friday night
• warped tour! screaming and jumping up and down to innerpartysystem, chiodos, the devil wears prada, white tie affair, and attack attack.
• getting zoey
  
• going to del taco at two in the morning with cosette (no chake!) =p
  

well, i should probably get to sleep. i'm dead freaking tired. i loves you all.
cheers to summer memories.
good night.

-xann

definitions

have you ever realized how many people are always constantly, sometimes almost obsessively fretting over their apperance? their flaws, their best features, what they wish they could change, what they wish they had, etc. now i'm not saying i never do this.

i was just reading one of alyse's blogs. the quote on hers said: "You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the car you drive. You're not the contents of your wallet. You're not your f***ing khakis. You're the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world." ~Tyler Durden.

i was thinking about this the other day in the shower. how so many people want to be defined by their clothes. their cars. their jewelery. when really, none of that should matter. what should matter is what you do. how you act. what you say. cause fifteen years from now, its not going to matter what shirt you wore, what car you rode to school in every day, what shoes you wore. all thats going to matter is what you learned, what memories you have, and the friends you made.

and if you're only dressing a certain way, talking a certain way, just so people will like you, then they won't really, truly, ever like you, just how you acted. so just be yourself. don't let other people dictate your life. don't let what you wear define who you are. all of these, i am aware are easier said than done. trying not to care what others say or think of you isn't always easy. especially if you hardly know the person, and they're just going off of assumptions. it takes courage, or something of the like.

i think something we all, as humans fear, is not being accepted. its hard when others judge you, and think they have you all figured out before they even take the time to know you. the whole "don't judge a book by its cover" bit comes to mind...

well, i'm pretty pooped. after going to back to school night, i'm officially excited for school. this year is going to be fun... i hope. all we can do is hope. at the very least i'm excited to wear my cobra starship t-shirt to the first day of school =p their song good girls go bad is ever so constantly stuck in my head, btdub. oh wells. i'm getting up early to hang out w/ cosey and kevin, me thinks. and at some point alyse, and grant. so i shall see you all later, good night sleep tight. don't let the bed bugs bite.

-xann