Wednesday, June 3, 2009

we're all fools in this silly game we play

a life without love, would be like a life without sight. thus equaling major suckage to the utmost extreme. if you could not see the world around you, all its beauty... what kind of a life would that be? to walk around and hear the rain fall upon the ground, but not to see the affect it has on the trees? the rainbow that it leaves behind?

we all play the game so commonly known as love. we get hurt, time over time over time over time. and yet, we still continue. we do not cease. why is this? common sense would tell us quite simply that if you wish to not get hurt, if you wish to remain fully intact, then do not give your heart out. not even in pieces. that way you won't even need to mess with duct tape, you won't need anyone to help put you back together ever, and you will always have all of your pieces inside of you, where they belong. but what would be the point in that? for love has nothing to do with common sense. a wise young girl once told me "we are never whole as we travel along in life; we leave bits and pieces of ourselves in others." if you give a part of yourself up to someone, then don't you think you just might receive a part of them? that in return for your loss, you would gain something? perhaps this makes it worth it. but even if you feel it does not, there are other reasons you might think it fair.

the feeling you get when the one you love, the one that is ever so constantly on your mind holds you in their arms; the feeling you get when your lips touch theirs, even for the briefest of moments; the feeling you get when you glance up to see their smile of adoration towards you; the feeling you get when you look at your phones caller id to realize thats its them calling; the feeling you get when you think of them and feel such contentment just to have them in your life, and say yes, he/she's mine. all of these things make the heartbreak that so closely follows love worth it.

its just making these feelings last that is the tricky part. we want these feelings to stay, to never fade, to never falter, to never doubt them or in the person that is making us feel this way. we want to be able to believe in them. i think that that is why even when there is a problem in a relationship, or in someone you love, you don't want to see it, you don't want to believe it. so you don't let yourself. you put the blindfold on, and refuse to take it off. you don't want to see what lies in front of you. true, it would be easier to keep it on, but you would be living a lie. and the longer you keep that blindfold on, the more its going to hurt when you take it off and see the light. its so much better to take it off, and not have to go on living like that. so, if you see another fellow fool walking around with a blindfold on, please, help them out. lend them a hand. wouldn't you want someone to do the same for you?

2 comments:

  1. Wow Xann, that was...way powerful. I'm sitting here, overwhelmed with...peace actually on this subject. Which has been more of a hectic, sad thing. But now, it's just like "Oh." and a sigh.
    I love how I'm the "wise young girl" that makes me feel special :)
    And, every word of this is true. It's so true it's ridiculous. As in, we should all see it this way, because truly it's right in front of our eyes.

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  2. Hey xan, this is jorden, Alyse's friend. I hope I'm not invading by reading this. Alyse referred me to this wonderful blog. Alyse said it when she said every word of this is true. Although, I would like to add my own thought. If we were to just keep our heart in hopes that it would stay whole, I believe that it wouldn't. There would always be something missing. A hole in our heart that can only be filled by another. I believe this is why we give up our heart. It's in hopes that this hole can become whole. Just a thought. If you don't want me to read your other blogs just let me know.

    Jay

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