i've got no way of knowing exactly where i'm going

well. its been a while since i've written a blog, more than ten days. i just haven't really had the time, or known exactly what i should talk about. but here goes.

life is pretty great right now, i have to admit. i miss everyone at the moment, but hopefully that will change soon enough. i haven't seen cosette since tuesday. zakk since wednesday. alyse since that friday we all hung out. carlos since general conference. grant since sometime over the summer probably. katie since that one time i just happened to be at the junction, and she just happened to need oil for her car.

but its all good. there are a few things i'm stressing about, but that i will refrain from mentioning here on cyberspace, or whatever.

my grades are good, i have a 3.6 for once in my life. i have a wonderful boyfriend that i love dearly. the quote by chase coy "and tho it's much too soon to tell, i'm hoping this will last,'' comes to mind. i have amazing friends that i know i can count on. i went to the used concert last weekend, and it was freaking awesome. i love that band. halloween is coming up! woot. i'm excited, even though i have no clue what i'm doing yet, or am going to be. there's still 15 more days to figure that all out, so its all good. its fall, my favorite time of year and the leaves are as gorgeous as ever. i got a hair cut yesterday, due to the fact that i could no longer see because my bangs were way too long. i'm on good terms with everyone in my family. for now anyways...

oh, and i tried this health energy drink stuff yesterday. it was my mom's friend, and her husband is in mona vie. its by mona vie, but its a new kind called EmV. its way good, it almost tastes like cranberries. just thought i'd share that :)

fall break has been pretty alright so far. wednesday afterschool hung out with zakk for a little while, till he had to leave around five or so i think it was? then i watched the proposal with my mommy. its funny. if you haven't seen it yet, i highly reccommend you do. yesterday i went with my mom and little brother to get our hair cut. it took three freaking hours. oh wells. then we got soup from kneaders. their italian cream soda's rock. today... hum. i might see cosette at some point. i was going to try to hang out with katie for a little while, but she works weird hours today, and plus its kyra's birthday, so they already have all these plans.

i got to drive again last night. it was fun. stressful, and kinda scary. but fun. i've only driven three different times, each time for at least ten minutes, and each time with a different car. the first time was in a wal-mart parking lot at one in the morning on the mazda that died a year or so ago. the second time was in the summer around two i think, and it was raining. i drove from one end of traverse mountain to the other, and back again. that was on the mini van. this last time was last night around one, and i just drove around in cedar hills in the residential area near wal-mart. my mom had to help me steer when we were going through the roundabout. i think i almost have the hang of stopping at stop signs...

well, the battery for the camera is done charging now, so i think i'll go take a walk on the trail and try to get some good pictures of the fall leaves. plus the lighting right now is really pretty. i got the title of this blog from the lyrics in a song by ashley parker angel. they're so true, you really have no way of knowing exactly where you're going. anything can change in a matter of hours, minutes, seconds. you never know.

well, happy friday everyone. i hope you all have a fabulous fall break. and thanks for reading.

-xann

i wish...

i wish that i could go to europe, just to see muse play

i wish that people weren't so judgemental

i wish that i could get more sleep

i wish that i didn't need so much sleep

i wish that i could fly

i wish that people wouldn't start wars

i wish that people weren't killing forests

i wish that i could speak fluent chinese

i wish that i could learn how to drive, before i turn 15

i wish that jonah would let me and cosette put evil, stoned, seductive mermaids in our fantasy story =p

i wish that stupid girls wouldn't mess with guys heads, just to prove that they could

i wish that the snow in utah would only last up until january

i wish that it would rain tomorrow

i wish that i could actually draw animals, and they wouldn't look stoned

i wish that i could always get good grades

i wish that anger and hatred didn't seem to outweigh love so much

i wish that i could watch a meteor shower with alyse

i wish that i could go to a beach in north carolina

i wish that school food didn't suck so much

i wish that i wouldn't be so pessimistic

i wish i could see paramore play a show, where they don't open for anyone, and they just play for an hour straight

i wish i could go to the used concert next week with carlos

i wish people wouldn't swear all the time for no reason better than they just think its "cool"

i wish the world wasn't so messed up

i wish the death cab concert hadn't sold out so fast when they played here this summer

i wish i could learn to dance

i wish most of the news we hear on tv, and in the paper wasn't all negative

i wish i could write better poetry

i wish i could keep my room clean for longer than two days

i wish i could have a blue platypus, like on phineas and ferb

i wish everyone could find a better outlet than drugs or drinking

i wish i could go to warped tour every year

i wish life made sense

i wish i could sing like hayley or hayleigh

i wish i didn't care as much what people thought of me

i wish it wasn't getting so cold so soon

i wish i had a pair of moccasins

i wish school wasn't so stressful

i wish my seminary teacher wasn't such a weirdie

i wish i could turn my feelings into songs

i wish i had a lime squeeze right about now

i wish i didn't get depressed nearly so easily

i wish i could write like s.e. hinton, or nicholas sparks

i wish i could cut my hair in a peacock again

i wish so many animals weren't going extinct

i wish people didn't hurt animals the way they do to get meat

i wish i wasn't allergic to pesto

i wish i could go visit the 80's, and take katie

i wish i could handle the cold better

i wish i could go to ikea and play house with hayleigh and cosette

i wish i could cook

i wish people wouldn't hunt animals for their tusks, fur, or other such things

i wish there was no such thing as a black market

i wish my computer wasn't dying

i wish alyse's froggie, toothpaste hadn't died

i wish i had a muse shirt

i wish mia hadn't died before i got to see her once more

i wish i had the cobra starship cd

i wish i could go to california sometime soon

i wish rob pattinson wasn't such a creeper... wait, nah he makes life more interesting. so nix that.

i wish catata hadn't died

i wish beyonce's voice wasn't so annoying

i wish i had a bamboo plant

i wish more people still used myspace

i wish i could see my cousin again soon

i wish i had more casette tapes

i wish paramore wasn't so mainstream now

i wish i wasn't so terrfied of bees

i wish i wasn't a night owl... kinda

i wish they had giant lava lamps on the subways or whatev in salt lake

i wish i knew how to use photoshop

i wish i was asleep right now...