who knows?

i don't know why its so hard for me to say when something is wrong. it just is. i think part of it is if people/a certain person is happy, i don't want to do anything to ruin that. i don't want to be the reason to take that away. so i keep it in. i don't say anything to anyone. unless i happen to be really tired or i decide fuck it, i don't care. thats really the only time i'll open up. i figure i'll get over it eventually. but even little things still hurt. maybe the reason they do is because i don't say anything about it. i act like everythings fine. and pretty much, no one ever notices. this is why facades are great.

most of the time, i just forget about those past things. and as long as i don't think about it, they don't matter. until something happens to remind me of it. then i can't get it out of my head. it sucks, but whatever. i prefer to act like everything's all good. its the way i do, i guess. its just what i'm used to.

i'm not sure if keeping quiet is better or not. but i guess we'll see.

d-d-d-d-dance for me =p

I wanna start taking a dance class somewhere outside of school. It's something i can really see myself getting into. Here are some quotes i like:

"And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music"

"Do you think dyslexic people have difficulty dancing to Y.M.C.A.?"

"It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance. It is the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance. It is the one who won't be taken who cannot seem to give. And the soul afraid of dying who never learns to live"

"Dance to express, not to impress"

"Anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain"

"We're fools whether we dance or not, so we might as well dance"